Exploring this thing they call Spiritual
Its nice to know that you are not alone. That across the globe
there are hundreds like you, going through similar emotions and
experiences. While its true we are all very different, each unique in
our own special ways, we do share many things in common.
If there is one thing that I have learned from talking to Weres and
through Were Poll, is that there are many key elements to being a
were. Of course their are exceptions to every rule, not everyone has
some or even any of these features in their therianthropy, but for the
ones who do here are some thoughts of mine:
All though not obvious at the time I can now look back at my life
and see how my Wereside has grown and expressed itself over the
years. Many Weres I have spoken to or read about have said that they
found the first traces of their were animals appearing when they
where around ten years old roughly. From then it grew over the
years, starting to express itself in dreams and shifts. One wonders
if this growth finally might climax in a physically transformation
or enlightenment of some form or another.
When we are young these signals from our weresides are confusing,
perhaps mixed with hormones during adolescence to complicate matters
still further. Feeling that one is crazy is quite common among Weres
however after reaching a certain point many come to live with
themselves and begin to stop worrying about these feelings and
rather to explore them and enjoy them.
- The bit that just refuses to be
Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I know without even
thinking that I am a wolf, I'll sniff the air, prick up my ears and
yawn widely. I'll feel bright and alert as ever, and when I turn to
look out my window I'll not just see the narrow band of life exposed
to the human eye but every flashing ripple of light on the pond,
every flap of a birds wings and every flutter of a golden leaf as it
falls to the ground below. The commonly used term for this kind of
experience is a mental shift. Where one has slipped into a way of
thinking and perceiving that is closer to their were animal than the
part of them that is human.
Shifts like these can often catch us out. For example to shift
mentally while in a busy, noisy place such as the Underground (the
subway to you Americans) or while in a shopping centre can be both
frightening and unpleasant experience. Bright lights invade your
thoughts and the confusion of noise around you makes focusing
difficult. Pushing people, movement sudden stops and jolts can be
disorientating, not to mention sudden loud noises such as the
screech of breaks.
Leading on from the last section, pain and fear go hand in hand
with the more positive aspects of our Wereness. Many of us have been
caused pain by our weresides either directly or indirectly, mentally
or physically. Be it social isolation or just frustration at not
having answers, being a were can have a strong psychological
effects. From talking to others and from my own experience, being a
were does tend to push you away from people, having a deeper insight
into folk or perhaps stereotypes, make us see through them and
rapidly tier of their mindless chatter. It also bring us closer
together as a community, I am far more happy to talk to Weres than
normal humans just because I know I can have an intelligent
conversation where both parties fully understand the issues and have
well informed views and opinions. Of course I don't like every were
I meet, but in general it is still easier to find friends of ones
own kind than amongst humans. I suppose this is because we have more
in common than just our nationalities or schools.
What exactly this inner animal is and how it got there is much
debated. Personally I think that I have been chosen for a reason
which is not immediately clear to me, to be a were and it is a gift
which I gratefully accept.
Others hold that some how what they are experiencing is due to
the genes that they inherited from their families, perhaps long
suppressed, that now manifest themselves.
Still how it got there is not terribly important at the current
time, the question we should be asking ourselves is what is its
purpose? Before we can even begin to answer that question though we
must try and understand our 'Weresides' as deeply as possible.
Understand what causes us to shift, what our dreams mean, why we
experience the feelings we do and perhaps most importantly why we want
to be animals.
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